Once again, piss-ism has to knock on my door. This time it's brought about by a fucking 14 year old faggot-in-denial who oh-so has to act all heteroseuxally "righteous" and go EEKK AARGGH UURRGGHH I'M PISSED!!! I LOOKED INTO THE GIRL GAMERS ALLIANCE FORUM AND FIRST THING I SAW WAS YAOI!!! IT BURNS MY EYESSS AAAAHHHH!! YOU GUYS ARE SICK!! SIIICCKK!! COME ON I'M 14 YEAR OLD AND #$(*&#)#*$&@)(*@ whatever the fuck he said.

I can't believe how fucking annoying these assholes can get!!! First thing, he private messaged me in the forum asking to make that Girl Gamers Alliance forum section private. When I said no I don't do that cos' of all the reasons I explained to him, he said "Then delete my account". Hell, he can just stop coming altogether, why bother me at all?? I wouldn't even have noticed he's gone for goodness sake (I don't even know him until today).

Then I checked the forum and noticed he made a thread JUST to post what I wrote in caps above (all paraphrase), Fucking attention sucker AND hyprocrite! I can even swear he fucking jerks to his MOMMA at home. Talk about being SWEET and INNOCENT and all that righteous crap. PFFT!! Gimme a break and FUCK OFF, in-puberty bastard.

And since it seems impossible for him to SCRAM on his own, I took the liberty to fucking ban him from the forum and my server altogether, which means he can't ever get into ALL my sites, including this one to see what I wrote about his pathetic being. MWAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

Okay, you may think "What did he do wrong? He was just being a prick, you can ignore him." Tell you what. You try being ME and THEN tell me if it's fun having to face people like that once in a few weeks, bearing all the swearing and blame just because you fucking own the forum.

There're fucking so-called RULESSSS in the forum, only, NO ONE READS THEM!!! OH MY GOD AM I SO SURPRISED!??!?! That section of the forum is called GIRL GAMERS ALLIANCE for FUCK's sake!! Are you fucking illiterate!?!?! Do you know what GIRL means??? Well pull your pants down and see if you have this fucking dick sticking out from your fucking crotch!!!! Not reading the rules and blaming ME for OMG opening the eyes of a fucking homophobic boy in puberty to the OH SO HORRIFYING YAOI???

Well guess what you fucking moron? I SURE HOPE that will forever carve an eternally PERMANENT TRAUMA in your pathetic homophobic BRAINLESS LIFE. Hope you enjoy my gift!!!!

After banning him from the forum and site, he figured he can't get to me by other means but email, so he emailed calling me a bitch and lesbian. Oh wow, I'm SURE he'd LOOOVE to see HOT GIRL ON GIRL ACTION. Hell I wouldn't care if I'm called a lesbian, I'm not the homophobic one here. But "bitch" isn't the right word here. I'm the GOD who rules MY community. You fucking mess with me, you fucking go to HELL. And so I banned him from my email account and HWOALA! Rot in hell, faggot.

Mind you, this isn't about people being homophobic. I've long accepted the fact that 99.999% of homo sapiens are homophobic whether I like it or not. Problem is with that guy NOT following the forum RULES, then complaining about what he should have KNOWN NOT to see, AND screaming and whailing to everyone else in the forum about how it's become MY fault that he's exposed to the horror. Tell me, if that's not annoying to deal with, WHAT is?!!

I know I know.. you're probably thinking "Jeez, Cat, relax. It's such a trivial issue, and he didn't do that much to deserve going to hell." But hey, like I give a shit what happens to people I don't even know/give a shit about?! All I care is that you piss me off and you're dead, at least I'd hope so. Which reminds me of how wonderful it'll be to really have a Death Note. Fuck conscience. At this point all I care is to ease this godamn frustration.

I always look for people to tell about my "pissed off" problems, but if I pick the wrong person to talk to, I'd end up getting even more pissed. Like people who don't take you seriously (and those who try to sound/be funny and make jokes that aren't funny), or can't place themselves in your shoes to be able to feel why I'm so pissed. Those who go "Girl, just IGNORE it. Period." piss me off as well. Why? It's really easy to say "Just ignore it". It's like saying "Oh don't worry, everything will be all right" to someone who definitely isn't finding things right. It's the eeeeasiest and quickest way to get out of that boring topic and sound as if you just made the absolute best and helpful advice without even thinking deeper and actually try feeling for that person, hence the reason I've chosen to just write it all out here and pretend my BLOG is the friend who's listening.

In general, I have VERY little patience when it comes to something or someone who finds a problem with me and either insults me, accuses me or puts me down. Dude! I'm NOT a godamn angel!! I'm not Mother Theresa or a saint, or someone who's able to withstand whatever that's slammed in their face and keep smiling. I'm an ordinary human being with low to no tolerance for such unfair treatment. Why is it so fucking hard to simply run a simple small community where everyone has common sense, manners and courtesy, which are godamn obviously the unwritten laws of this universe?!?

I know why... The world is never made up of such 'idealistic' people, but lately we've damn well been getting more bastards than goodies. What happens to the balance? That equilibrium!?! GAAAHH!! Why is it that the assholes always prevail!?!?

Anyway, I'm feeling slightly better now that I've ranted the shit I had to rant. Those who actually read all this, you guys rule, unless the next thing you're doing is to tell me how you disagree with everything. Bet you've never seen me curse and swear more than this single passage. In any case, may god bless and keep you away from the same shit I have to deal with. =/ Amen.

The Tales of Anime convention in San Francisco is nearing... I still can’t believe that I’m actually going. O_o... (for someone who hates traveling and spending a single cent on it, not to mention hotel bills and crap) I guess this is what happens when you’re obsessed with something, even if does you no good in life, ever.

Also, I spent quite a lot this month already and I’m not even sure why and how =/ Gotta refer to my cash records... I seriously wish my tax returns will come soon so that I can use that money to pay off everything for the trip, but alas, that’s not gonna happen till a little later, I presume.

I got an email with information regarding the press pass that I’m going to get for the convention. With all the restrictions and "can"s and "cannot"s, it seems like it’s so going to be tough to get what I really want there - footage/film/picture shots of everything. I even have to write and print out consent forms, which I suppose is 'professional’ but annoying and troublesome. >_> Oh well, we’ll see how it all turns out. =/

All this time, I keep thinking that there’s just going to be just Reuben Langdon (Dante’s voice actor) and Dan Southworth (Vergil), and I entirely forgot about Johnny Yong Bosch (Nero). >_> He seems to be an interesting one though, not to mention he’s definitely half Asian from his looks. WOOT! LOL ^_^ Apparently, he debuted in Power Rangers as Black Ranger... ZOMG! LOL Power Rangers yet again!!! XD

A friend told me that he also voices Ichigo from Bleach (English dub) and out of curiosity, I searched for it on youtube and man, it’s Nero’s voice all right. XD And since I was already watching random parts of random episodes of the English dub, I ended up watching more of it, especially those with more different characters in it just to check out how they sound in English.

Ichigo’s no problem, 'cept for the fact he can’t pronounce anyone’s name (but Chad’s) properly, like practically every other character. It made me wonder if they should have just changed all of their names into English ones, like Peter, David, Alisa, Mary etc. LOL For those who know Bleach, you seriously should listen to how they pronounce the word "zanpakutou". It made me laugh soooo friggin’ hard I bet my roommate thinks I’m on ecstasy.

Other good/acceptable voices are Keigo Asano (Ichigo’s friend at school), Shiba Shuukaku (I hope that’s her name...), Chad and Captain of Squad #1 (forgot his name). Bad voices include Ishida Uryuu (gay, just gay), Urahara Kisuke (too annoying and obnoxious), Abarai Renji (also annoying, not to mention he screams ZAHN PARK TOE the best) and Hitsugaya Toushirou (something is just off, very off).

Anyway, that’s all for now. Got not too much to say =/

Surprised to see me back so soon? Well, it’s mainly because I just finished God of War 2 over the weekend and want to rant a little on it. =P Anyone saw that coming? LOL Anyway, I’ll try to summarize this quickly since I've once reviewed GoW1 before and there're not too many differences.

The PROS? As usual, great graphics, epic music, good-looking level designs, and best of all if you ask me, creative and impressive combat action sequences (these occur mostly when you press O when giant bosses get dizzy). These sequences are basically a series of preset actions that the main character Kratos will perform when you activate the sequence. This is typically done by pressing the corresponding face buttons that appear on screen in time, which means you’ll have to pay attention as you watch the sequence.

There’re also way more puzzles this time round, which would please puzzle lovers, but alas, I’m not one of them >_o However, objectively speaking, the puzzles should prove to be fun. They also added more bosses this time, which is good since God of War 1 only had 3 bosses throughout the entire game of about 10 hours (GoW2 is longer). >_>" If you ask me, the bosses are the best thing in the entire GoW2 game, since they are when the cool action sequences will occur. =D

The CONS? This is ultimately a matter of personal judgment (based on my definition and perception of certain things) but regardless of how flashy and cool Kratos’ attacks and moves may be, GoW is, in my opinion, a hack and slasher, made less obvious thanks to its half-possible mid air combos and real time weapon switching (only in GoW2) that people find highly similar to Devil May Cry.

People may argue that you can do the same for DMC, but I find myself using the same few moves again and again and still kicking ass just cause they’re most effective. Of course, every player plays differently and while I think it’s a hack and slasher, others may just prove to me that it can be played like DMC3 with the right skills and creativity.

In any case, the reason why being 'hack and slasher-ish’ is a con is just because it gets highly repetitive and tiring, or boring after a while. They try to reduce the repetitiveness by introducing new weapons and moves each time you upgrade them but it is still easy to find one move that you like and spam it to victory. >_>""

Anyway, the game overalls to an A - the only thing keeping it from A+ being the one CON I mentioned above. And... the end! Mwahahahaha!! Okay, I guess that wasn’t as short as I planned for it to be.... >_o

And now back to HEROES...... Suresh is HOOOTTT and Sylar needs to DIE!!!!!! DIE DAMMIT DIEEEE!!!!! >_ >

Good lord, I haven't updated this site at all since I started the Kung Pao Fu project. >_>" Sorry to those who check this site often... namely my sister ^^" Well, so here I am, thinking I should write something before I neglect this blog entirely... (I hope not)

I must say, there really isn’t much going on at this moment. All I’ve been busy with is Kung Pao Fu, period. I practically worked on it for weeks nonstop, so much that even Devil’s Lair is neglected. >_>" Call me crazy but cos’ I work on those sites so much (you don’t know how much time I spent on them altogether, man), they’re practically my flesh and blood, hence the reason I often refer to them as "my sons". LOL And the point is, even though I love both of them just as much, the newborn one just, inevitably, takes all my attention.

Currently, it’s got a small community of about 50 people, and considering the site is less than 1 month old, I’m satisfied with it. ^_^ For a long time I’ve feared that I was the only God Hand fan in this world...figuratively speaking. >_>"

Anyway, other than KPF, I’m now also drawn into and obsessed about HEROES (an NBC TV series), thanks to my sister and Riko from Indonesia. You know how sometimes it takes more than one person to recommend something before you’re willing to give it a try? That’s how HEROES was for me. My sister (hello ci~~ LOL) was the one who first told me about it like weeeeks ago, but Riko, an online friend from Indonesia, was the one who sparked off my motivation to watch it for real.

I remember my sister telling me that I can watch the series online, so I did. I went on NBC’s website and found several of the latest episodes and episode 1. After watching episode 1, I got addicted and immediately wished for episode 2 but at that time they’ve taken it down the site. I searched online for sometime but I couldn’t find it any site where I can watch for free. In the end, I had no choice but to buy and pay for it per episode through Itunes. Hell, when I want something I WANT something, so yeps, I just had to do it. >_>

And so I watched 16 episodes in a row and my obsession maxed out. I don’t remember ever getting so obsessed about any series since Queer as Folk, and even with QAF, I wasn’t madly obsessed. I guess this is what you get from a suspense/thriller series. Sigh... The 5-week hiatus HEROES is on right now is seriously giving me frustration along with 'depression’. I think I’m gonna rot in that time, man.

Then, like 3 weeks after I started watching HEROES, NBC’s site listed all the episodes to enable viewers to watch the entire series online. =_=’’’ WTF...!!??! Oh well, whatever. I still like buying the episodes since I don’t have to watch boring ads and I can fast forward and rewind anytime. =P

For those who don’t have a clue and wish to know (uh oh, here goes her rambles again), HEROES is basically about ordinary people with extraordinary powers. Thanks to that, these people experience dramatic changes in their lives, good and bad. In short, this story one full of drama, suspense and thrill, which I guarantee will leave you on the edge of your seat at all times. If you ask me, no other TV series (non-anime) I’ve ever watched in my life beats HEROES. =)

On a random note (highlight to view 'spoilers'), my favorite characters in HEROES are Hiro (space/time traveler), Peter (power mimic), the Haitian (memory eraser) and Suresh (geneticist). One Japanese, one American, one Haitian and one Indian. WOOT!! They’re so diverse! XD

Then, 'thanks' to my obsession for HEROES, I recently dreamt of another nightmare. (WHY nightmares?!) You see, there’s a baddie in HEROES named Sylar. He’s basically a serial killer who kills those with special powers, and the way he does that is to slice your skull in half and eat your brain. In my dream, it seemed that for some reason this Sylar guy was coming after me and my dad, even though we don’t have powers (at least we thought so). Dude, there’s no way in hell I want my skull halved! >_

I remember crying hard in the dream. The Haitian was even in it! I remember grabbing his shoulders crying and asking if my father will be okay. I don’t remember him replying though, cos’ I think that’s when I woke up. O_o. Damn. Why my father anyway...?!

Anyway, I guess that’s enough HEROES talk. =P I gotta get off work now and hop on to Big City Gaming to rent my God of War 2. Mwahahahahaa!! (Oh trust me, that game is overrated, but I’m still getting it anyway to see it for myself. =P)

It's time for dream sharing again...! I've told this to 2-3 people on IRC but I'll be damned if I don't remember it for the rest of my life so here I am jotting it down in my no-life journal. XD

Well, yet again someone was after my life and this time he tried to kill me in my sleep. Wierd thing is, he attempted to kill me using a very weird and not very effective method of murder, that is by piling up layers of heavy matresses on top of me while I was sleeping... Dude... matresses??

Anyway, I woke up from the pressure and somehow knew immediately what was going on but I was too afraid too retaliate. In my head I was actually planning to struggle the hell out after the man leaves, but then again I was brave enough to sleepily turn my head around to see who the man was. He was wearing a black cloak with a hood over his head, the shadows completely hiding his face. I had no idea who it could have been, but it did came to me that that cloak looked hella familiar. It looked just like the Organization XIII cloak. Yes, you can LYAO (laugh your ass off) now.

So I was like "Wha--??" in my head thinking why the hell an Organization XIII character would be here in my room (LOL). And then for some reason, I reached a hand out towards him and surprisingly, he gave me his hand. O_O!! In the dream I could feel the warmth of his hand. Auwww~~ (fangirly squeals) Yeah, call me nuts, whatever. BLAME it on games! Yeah yeah. SSSHHH! Say all you want but don't spoil my fun! I just find it funny I'm STILL the fangirl that I am even in my dream, even tho' I was 'in the process of getting murdered'. LMAO. The irony that I felt though, was that he only did that as a nice way of saying "Farewell and rest in peace." >_>"

Unfortunately (LOL), it wasn't long before he disappeared, but I thought I could still feel his hand, so I looked closer only to realize that there is an detached arm hanging from the top of my bed (where I hang my clothes over). I have no idea if it was a fake arm, the cloaked man's arm, or a duplicate of his arm, but it did feel warm. o_o'' If you ask me that was creepy. Imagine you were holding a living person's hand and then next thing you realize you're holding onto the hand of a detached liveless arm. Euw. >_>"

After that I think I woke up. >_>" The dream wasn't a quarter as scary as other dreams I've had but the last part was fairly disturbing, I thought. And though I guess it's meant to be a scary dream (come on, I was getting murdered in the lamest way! LOL), I didn't feel it was all that bad after I woke up. I still feel all KYAAA~~!! and fangirly about the fact that an Organization XIII dude would hold my hand. HAHAHAHA!! (For those who dunno, Organization XIII is a group of black cloaked characters from Kingdom Hearts 2) And for you guys reading this, don't you go tsk tsk tsk at me just yet. This is the nature of fangirls, especially those as crazy as me. =) You can't blame me for acting all insane in this sense =D

So I kept thinking, which ONE of the 13 Organization XIII peeps could it be? It was a man, I'm sure, so it couldn't have been Larxene. I was looking at the man from a bottom-to-top view since I was lying on my bed, and from that angle his body figure seemed to fit only Xemnas, Saïx, Xigbar, Xaldin, Marluxia, Vexen, Lexaeus, or Luxord (the bigger guys). [If you'd like to see all their pics, check out their section on Wikipedia here] In my mind in the dream, I was guessing that it was Xemnas, but that's more than likely only becos I hoped it was him. LOL. Once a fangirl, always a fangirl. =3